When I’m going through a really stressful time, I sometimes feel like there’s so many things that I have to do but there is NO WAY for me to do them. My mind creates a wall that is impossible to get past. All the stress has almost like a paralyzing effect that I just can’t do anything about.
Well, it’s impossible when I’m not at practice. When I’m there, my wall breaks down. There is no way for me to think “I can’t do this” about anything while I am doing something that I used to deem impossible for less than a year ago.
Those 1-2 hours of practice is all it takes to shove through that wall and feel lighter. It’s just not possible to not be happy. Usually it’s literally all I need but sometimes I can still feel that big wall in my mind the day after and that’s when I know that I need to deal with that problem since it’s not going away by itself.
(OR I just need to go to practice everyday?! 😮 Maybe it’s a good thing that they don’t offer grappling everyday at my dojo. If they did, I would practically live there and my family already thinks I train too much… :p)